Hullabaloo

Currently 2 25 in the morning and here I am, still wide awake. I can’t believe I forgot to bring my laptop with me. In all the excitement of going home yesterday and the prospect of going shopping, I forgot to pick up my laptop which I prepared the night before. Damn, and there I was planning on some graphics design I had in mind. I did shop at Makati yesterday. I miss that place. It’s like my third home, hehe, aside from my real home and school ^_^ I wasn’t able to buy some things I had in mind because I deliberately left my money so that I wouldn’t spend it all. I bought a skirt, two tops and a pair of flip flops. Yep, I bought the ones from People are People. Shopping part 2 will be this Sunday. I’m gonna drag my mother dear, if she’s willing to. She still doesn’t know though that I bought those. She only saw the skirt because I had to go back today to exchange it because of a damage I didn’t see. Anyway, yesterday, I saw Acha and Claire in Topshop, shopping too. Then Erika and Val in People. Bruha! Ang payat mo, grabe! But the AC uniform still suits you kahit super luwang, haha! :D For some reason, I miss wearing our red uniform. La lang. I saw red plaid skirts scattered around the mall and I remembered high school days when after class, we would drop by the mall. I got home with a welcome from a very enthusiastic Lucky (my dog) making quite a ruckus which caused the orchestra to start (one dog howling, one dog barking and the other…singing? Haha!). My dad has grown thinner than he already is, my mom looks haggard than ever, and the house was a mess, according to my standards. The library is under repair, thanks to the termites that found its way on our book shelf causing one part to fall apart, and my dad’s office, which makes me woozy by just looking at it is also under “organization.” Apparently, we can’t just throw the reports and books away because they are “top-secret.” Hmm….. Anyway, everything is such a hullabaloo around here.

It turns out that my dad’s leaving, this time for sure, on the 30th of August or was it on the 29th? They have been pestering him to come back (hmm…memorable phrase). They’re annoying. Oh well. Life’s like this. ^_^

It seems that I can never be good enough. Shouldn’t really bother me but it does. I do not wish to be compared to anyone. I am different, obviously, but they or rather, she can’t seem to see it. My study habits had indeed changed over time. I may not get the same results as I did before, and yes, I am slacking off, but to be compared to “them.” Please, give me a break and seriously, is that a way to raise my already decreasing self-esteem? Such a big help you’ve been.