Of past entries
I’m done studying for Theo and moving on to Filipino, but since my mind’s still in Theo mode, I need some sort of distraction to prepare me for the next subject. I can’t say I’m confident for tomorrow. It can never be said when an exam comes up. Oh well.
I’m slightly annoyed. I cut one class AGAIN today! After I’ve told myself to save those cuts for deathly important occasions, here I am breaking my word again. Sheesh! Hehe! But I’m thinking of cutting Psych tomorrow. IF I haven’t finished reading for Filipino. But I’m still really very tempted. Haha! So much for “deathly important” occasions.
My whims come at a bad timing. Seriously. My hands were itching to make a layout earlier and just as I was studying! I had an idea when I saw The Fifth Muse’s site. It was hauntingly beautiful. Literally. It had this ghostly, mysterious effect that would send slight tremors on your back. I’m thinking of patterning a layout the same way, of course, using her brushes and maybe her artworks. I hope this itch won’t go away for a while. This weather is just the right atmosphere to create that haunting layout. It sort of reflects my mood. Whee! I’m excited to start clicking on that mouse and encode! I promise myself that I’ll learn how to use flash for making websites. It’ll be a challenge, I know, as people from the web design world had told me. But nothing will come out of nothing if you don’t work on it.
I was chatting with Rica last night, and frankly dearie, I “lose” myself when we chat. Haha!! I don’t know what I am na when we talk. Kidding! It’s like, is this me? Do these things actually come from me? Hmmm…I think you draw out the real me. Hahaha!! Oh well! That’s why we have fun ;p I can’t wait to watch those series! What’s the title? The L Word? As long as you restrain yourself. A “handful” of Rica would be hard to handle. But I’m sure you wouldn’t mind. Pero papatayin ako ng asawa mo. Hehe! You guys keep it up. Congrats! You actually made a long-distance relationship work ^_^
I’m reading my blog entries from way way before. It was April 2003 when I was introduced to the blogging dimension by Gin (I miss ya girl!). April 27, 2003 Sunday, to be exact. Haha! La lang. I was just looking if anything had changed over time, and of course it has. Obviously. Funny how my entries before were assaulted with numerous exclamation points, side comments and “actions.” Take for example, this entry:
“*drools* yummy! i love cakes! especially honey crunch cake! i'm addicted to it! (sta! i'm not a d---) mwahaha! yummy...just thinking about it makes me want to eat it...NOW!!! mwahaha!!! *tiptoes to the kitchen and takes out a knife, fork and plate. goes to the fridge and takes out the half-filled-plate-of-cake-that-was-just-bought-yesterday and cuts 1/4 of it* *drools* *drools* YUMMY!!! ack!!! i wanna eat!!! haha!!! bu-bye! i'm gonna eat it right now!!! mwahahaha!!!”
Seriously, how weird could I get? Haha ^_^ I’m actually craving for cake right now. Then there was this super duper long entry about the time we went to EK. It was so detailed! It’s also funny to see what my reactions were before:
“so anyway, i was looking for pictures for me and sta's major major fic! pictures to represent the characters of course! i wanted anonymous people, not celebrities or anything but sta had a hard time looking for a redhead girl so i tried to look for it...MY GOD! you can't believe it!!! my mind was so like polluted! in the google search, obscene/lewd/indecent/disgusting links came up!!! EEEEEWWWWW!!! how utterly disgusting! and i added the word decent but still disgusting links came up! *shudders* so i gave up!! i mean, how could i go on if those kinds of links come up?! so anyway, celebrity pics are all right...^_^ (sta! i give up! and you're right! looking for pictures of nobodies is just...*shudders*) yuck!”
Haha! They’re all so funny. A good distraction ^_~ *read read read*
Cool, I saw this poem that I posted. I didn’t compose it though.
Certain Words
There are certain words…
That sting as they leave your tongue
And echo in your memory for years after they are spoken
And you will always remember what I was wearing
And the peeling paint on the wall behind me
That you could only see clearly when you stared straight through me
There are certain days that you will always regret living
They will haunt you in your sleep every lonely winter night
And you will awake to the sound of your own tears
And you will hate yourself
For not being strong enough to pull the trigger to a happier time
That your memory has forgotten
I’m obviously bored. Hehe. But it’s fun reading my past entries. Parang, ako ba yan? And then I saw that I really burst all my feelings there like the negative feelings and such. Hehe. Siyempre, I’m reminiscing right now. Oh well. Just as long as it’ll keep me from studying Fil! Haha, cramming!
“it really is hard to be so close to someone just to know that someday, they will be gone from your life...why am i saying this? well, we found out today that one of my classmates, who was my classmate from first year to fourth year was leaving for japan and she MIGHT not come back...isn't that depressing? so today, during our practice for our presentations tomorrow, we were all crying, teary-eyed, sobbing...such a depressing day..and top it off with the physics test...sure i studied...sort of but it was also difficult for others...stupid formulas...SHEEETTTTT!!!!”
Aaawww…I miss Kayo. She’s back in Japan right? After a short vacation. Hehe, here comes my weird dreams again. I don’t understand why I have these astoundingly weird dreams.
“i had a very weird dream last night...the latter part i forgot coz it was kinda scary but the first part i did remember ^_^ it was a dream in a dream ^_^ get it? okay, i slept, then i dreamt that i was sleeping and i was having a dream. in that dream, i felt myself slowly giving in to sleep when suddenly, i WAS asleep...i really can't explain what i felt, it's kinda vague. anyway, when i was in that deep sleep, i felt trapped and it was like floating, being weightless and i couldn't feel anything. the feeling was also like you're trapped in this box. anyway, in my dream, it was like i was awake inside but my physical was asleep...get it so far? anyway, i wanted to wake up and i willed my eyes to open but i couldn’t! i couldn’t even move my legs and my arms and my body was soooo STIFF! suddenly, a voice, i don't know who, woke me up. anyway, when i opened my eyes (im still dreaming), it was dark and i could see a figure moving closer and closer to me, then suddenly backing up, while moving closer again. someone was beside me and i asked this person what that thing was...the person said that he/she couldn't see anything...then i knew i was hallucinating...i forgot the latter part of my dream. anyway, i know something frightened me in my dream that woke me up...well, that's it...kinda weird right!?! *shudders*”
Hahaha! La lang.
“anyway, i was reading through my blog entries and the stories that i made before and now, and i noticed the difference among them. The stories i did before and my blog entries were always happy. it has this certain cheerful tone, a light tone, but my works now has a tinge of seriousness and formality. it surprised me really. when i read what i wrote, it's as if a different person wrote it. a completely different person. don't you ever get that feeling sometimes? when you write something and leave it alone, the next time you read it again, you can't believe that you were the one who wrote it. okay...im not making sense! :D haha! ^_^”
I actually made sense. I miss reading novels. I haven’t read a thing. Well, hold on, I have. It’s called Naked Once Again by Elizabeth Peters. I’m still reading it.
“we had the greatest english lesson ever! it has its positive and negative sides. what happened? we finished the book les miserables and to tell you the truth, i have fallen deeply in love with it! it is fantastic, wonderful, amazing, touching! it is just ineffable! no words can describe what i truly feel about this book! the ending is really beautiful. it gives justice to the book. if you haven't read les miserables, then i suggest you do because you cannot live without reading it. it encompasses almost every emotion that we feel, situations that we may run into. what is truly amazing in this book is that we see parts of ourselves in the characters. there is a person struggling to do good no matter how difficult it is, a person whose love was not returned, an evil person, a person held upright by his upbringing...and much much more! ^_^ as i've said, we are done with the book and it was ended with a song "finale" from the broadway musical! truly wonderful! it actually made me teary-eyed (couldn't cry in front of the teachers...^_^) because of the beauty it showed me ^_^the negative side to it is that IT IS DONE!!! but what can we do? all good things must come to an end...they never truly stay... ^_^”
“Oh well, life’s like that. People leave…”
Haha! Ang bitter!
Okay, enough. I seriously need to read for Fil. So help me God, I suck in that subject. I can’t even describe how I feel without resulting to English. :( I’ve made up my mind. I’m cutting.
I’m slightly annoyed. I cut one class AGAIN today! After I’ve told myself to save those cuts for deathly important occasions, here I am breaking my word again. Sheesh! Hehe! But I’m thinking of cutting Psych tomorrow. IF I haven’t finished reading for Filipino. But I’m still really very tempted. Haha! So much for “deathly important” occasions.
My whims come at a bad timing. Seriously. My hands were itching to make a layout earlier and just as I was studying! I had an idea when I saw The Fifth Muse’s site. It was hauntingly beautiful. Literally. It had this ghostly, mysterious effect that would send slight tremors on your back. I’m thinking of patterning a layout the same way, of course, using her brushes and maybe her artworks. I hope this itch won’t go away for a while. This weather is just the right atmosphere to create that haunting layout. It sort of reflects my mood. Whee! I’m excited to start clicking on that mouse and encode! I promise myself that I’ll learn how to use flash for making websites. It’ll be a challenge, I know, as people from the web design world had told me. But nothing will come out of nothing if you don’t work on it.
I was chatting with Rica last night, and frankly dearie, I “lose” myself when we chat. Haha!! I don’t know what I am na when we talk. Kidding! It’s like, is this me? Do these things actually come from me? Hmmm…I think you draw out the real me. Hahaha!! Oh well! That’s why we have fun ;p I can’t wait to watch those series! What’s the title? The L Word? As long as you restrain yourself. A “handful” of Rica would be hard to handle. But I’m sure you wouldn’t mind. Pero papatayin ako ng asawa mo. Hehe! You guys keep it up. Congrats! You actually made a long-distance relationship work ^_^
I’m reading my blog entries from way way before. It was April 2003 when I was introduced to the blogging dimension by Gin (I miss ya girl!). April 27, 2003 Sunday, to be exact. Haha! La lang. I was just looking if anything had changed over time, and of course it has. Obviously. Funny how my entries before were assaulted with numerous exclamation points, side comments and “actions.” Take for example, this entry:
“*drools* yummy! i love cakes! especially honey crunch cake! i'm addicted to it! (sta! i'm not a d---) mwahaha! yummy...just thinking about it makes me want to eat it...NOW!!! mwahaha!!! *tiptoes to the kitchen and takes out a knife, fork and plate. goes to the fridge and takes out the half-filled-plate-of-cake-that-was-just-bought-yesterday and cuts 1/4 of it* *drools* *drools* YUMMY!!! ack!!! i wanna eat!!! haha!!! bu-bye! i'm gonna eat it right now!!! mwahahaha!!!”
Seriously, how weird could I get? Haha ^_^ I’m actually craving for cake right now. Then there was this super duper long entry about the time we went to EK. It was so detailed! It’s also funny to see what my reactions were before:
“so anyway, i was looking for pictures for me and sta's major major fic! pictures to represent the characters of course! i wanted anonymous people, not celebrities or anything but sta had a hard time looking for a redhead girl so i tried to look for it...MY GOD! you can't believe it!!! my mind was so like polluted! in the google search, obscene/lewd/indecent/disgusting links came up!!! EEEEEWWWWW!!! how utterly disgusting! and i added the word decent but still disgusting links came up! *shudders* so i gave up!! i mean, how could i go on if those kinds of links come up?! so anyway, celebrity pics are all right...^_^ (sta! i give up! and you're right! looking for pictures of nobodies is just...*shudders*) yuck!”
Haha! They’re all so funny. A good distraction ^_~ *read read read*
Cool, I saw this poem that I posted. I didn’t compose it though.
Certain Words
There are certain words…
That sting as they leave your tongue
And echo in your memory for years after they are spoken
And you will always remember what I was wearing
And the peeling paint on the wall behind me
That you could only see clearly when you stared straight through me
There are certain days that you will always regret living
They will haunt you in your sleep every lonely winter night
And you will awake to the sound of your own tears
And you will hate yourself
For not being strong enough to pull the trigger to a happier time
That your memory has forgotten
I’m obviously bored. Hehe. But it’s fun reading my past entries. Parang, ako ba yan? And then I saw that I really burst all my feelings there like the negative feelings and such. Hehe. Siyempre, I’m reminiscing right now. Oh well. Just as long as it’ll keep me from studying Fil! Haha, cramming!
“it really is hard to be so close to someone just to know that someday, they will be gone from your life...why am i saying this? well, we found out today that one of my classmates, who was my classmate from first year to fourth year was leaving for japan and she MIGHT not come back...isn't that depressing? so today, during our practice for our presentations tomorrow, we were all crying, teary-eyed, sobbing...such a depressing day..and top it off with the physics test...sure i studied...sort of but it was also difficult for others...stupid formulas...SHEEETTTTT!!!!”
Aaawww…I miss Kayo. She’s back in Japan right? After a short vacation. Hehe, here comes my weird dreams again. I don’t understand why I have these astoundingly weird dreams.
“i had a very weird dream last night...the latter part i forgot coz it was kinda scary but the first part i did remember ^_^ it was a dream in a dream ^_^ get it? okay, i slept, then i dreamt that i was sleeping and i was having a dream. in that dream, i felt myself slowly giving in to sleep when suddenly, i WAS asleep...i really can't explain what i felt, it's kinda vague. anyway, when i was in that deep sleep, i felt trapped and it was like floating, being weightless and i couldn't feel anything. the feeling was also like you're trapped in this box. anyway, in my dream, it was like i was awake inside but my physical was asleep...get it so far? anyway, i wanted to wake up and i willed my eyes to open but i couldn’t! i couldn’t even move my legs and my arms and my body was soooo STIFF! suddenly, a voice, i don't know who, woke me up. anyway, when i opened my eyes (im still dreaming), it was dark and i could see a figure moving closer and closer to me, then suddenly backing up, while moving closer again. someone was beside me and i asked this person what that thing was...the person said that he/she couldn't see anything...then i knew i was hallucinating...i forgot the latter part of my dream. anyway, i know something frightened me in my dream that woke me up...well, that's it...kinda weird right!?! *shudders*”
Hahaha! La lang.
“anyway, i was reading through my blog entries and the stories that i made before and now, and i noticed the difference among them. The stories i did before and my blog entries were always happy. it has this certain cheerful tone, a light tone, but my works now has a tinge of seriousness and formality. it surprised me really. when i read what i wrote, it's as if a different person wrote it. a completely different person. don't you ever get that feeling sometimes? when you write something and leave it alone, the next time you read it again, you can't believe that you were the one who wrote it. okay...im not making sense! :D haha! ^_^”
I actually made sense. I miss reading novels. I haven’t read a thing. Well, hold on, I have. It’s called Naked Once Again by Elizabeth Peters. I’m still reading it.
“we had the greatest english lesson ever! it has its positive and negative sides. what happened? we finished the book les miserables and to tell you the truth, i have fallen deeply in love with it! it is fantastic, wonderful, amazing, touching! it is just ineffable! no words can describe what i truly feel about this book! the ending is really beautiful. it gives justice to the book. if you haven't read les miserables, then i suggest you do because you cannot live without reading it. it encompasses almost every emotion that we feel, situations that we may run into. what is truly amazing in this book is that we see parts of ourselves in the characters. there is a person struggling to do good no matter how difficult it is, a person whose love was not returned, an evil person, a person held upright by his upbringing...and much much more! ^_^ as i've said, we are done with the book and it was ended with a song "finale" from the broadway musical! truly wonderful! it actually made me teary-eyed (couldn't cry in front of the teachers...^_^) because of the beauty it showed me ^_^the negative side to it is that IT IS DONE!!! but what can we do? all good things must come to an end...they never truly stay... ^_^”
“Oh well, life’s like that. People leave…”
Haha! Ang bitter!
Okay, enough. I seriously need to read for Fil. So help me God, I suck in that subject. I can’t even describe how I feel without resulting to English. :( I’ve made up my mind. I’m cutting.
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