Of shopping

“…And I wonder just where my place is. Close my eyes and I remind myself this…I will be strong on my own. I will see through the rain, I will find my way. I will keep on traveling this road till I finally reach my dream, till I'm living, and I'm breathing my destiny…” – I Will Be by Christina Aguilera

I guess I won’t be cutting Filipino for a while. I already have 3 cuts and it’s the biggest one so far. I was missed because I cut my Filipino for two successive meetings, and we had a quiz for one meeting. It’s really tempting to cut that subject. I mean, look. I have a two hour break before that. Who in their right mind wouldn’t? Haha! But Friday was the best! ^_^

I have to make up for the quizzes I missed and failed, for the stupendous grades on my long exams and for going to class not knowing anything for that day. I’m in “nerd mode” right now. Well, trying to be. I was studying for Theo last night, and I just couldn’t concentrate. It was boring, and my eyes kept closing out of their own accord. Deciding to study at 1, I laid on my bed and had this short but weirdest dream. It was kinda like a Fantastic Four where there’s this faceless guy who swallowed this ball of fire and absorbed it. Then an invisible woman who kept bumping on another person. Then there were those flying robots that looked liked cameras. It was so weird, and I had no idea where those were coming from. It’s not as if I watched a movie containing robots and such. Anyway, then out of nowhere, a sound of something ringing was heard, and well, I woke up because “someone” called. Haha! Nanggaya daw ^_^ Anyway, I was awake for sometime but when I got back to reading the last of the handouts, my body just gave up and decided to finish reading them in the morning. Oh well, may God have mercy on me and create a miracle for my grade.

I heard an interesting conversation yesterday after my class in SA. I was in the bathroom, and there were two other girls talking. The first girl was complaining on her family’s lack of funds, especially for the next semester and how her parents were being worried and all. Then, proceeding, she said that she noticed how right now she feels lost. She goes to school and study just for the sake of getting a good grade that would be socially accepted when she has graduated. “Ano ba talaga ang purpose ng buhay ko? Para kasing walang kwenta na eh. Halos pare-pareho na lang ang ginagawa ko araw-araw.” Of course that wasn’t the exact phrasing, but it went somewhere along those lines. I could sympathize with her since that was what I was feeling a few days ago. I wanted to shout, I feel the same way! But I didn’t want to tarnish my reputation as some crazy-female-eavesdropper-shouting-from-a-cubicle in the Faura bathroom. Then her friend told her that feeling that way shouldn’t cause her to want to end her life. *nods* Well, nobody said life would be easy. A cliché that we would always hear, but cannot wholly grasp.

It’s funny how a name or even a person’s initials can elicit this “jolt.”

If there’s one thing I hate, it’s people who are being downright rude! Hello! Umagang-umaga masisira na araw mo! Why can’t people just shut up!? It may be a compliment in some way but please say it nicely! And what’s with the look?! If I weren’t just a girl or if I weren’t alone, I would have given them a piece of my mind, but I know better. Who knows what these people think and what they’ll do?

I’m gonna study for my Friday exams today and also finalize our group report for tomorrow. We haven’t even met to discuss! Haha! But it’s okay, it’s not as if anyone really listens except for our prof. I had this strong urge to watch a movie today, and possibly buy those wonderful pants that looks like skirt when worn from Mango!!! I was prepared to buy it last Sunday, but they didn’t have my size! Grr! So I’ll try to check if they have it. If they do, then I’ll be ready! I also discovered basic shirts from Topshop and I still need to buy those sandals from The Shoe Salon! What else? Basically, I’ll be saving money to shop in Mango, hehe! It’s not that I don’t care about the cost. I do! My pocket’s started to singe, and in no time will result to a hole. Oh well. That’s life. You lose some, you gain some! But I seriously want and need those pants! Not to mention that purple jacket and a pink one from Terranova plus their new long sleeves! Wah! Then my parents will ask, why is your card empty? Where did all your allowance go? Waha! Then I’ll show them my receipts. That, I’m sure would kill them. Then they’ll rise from the dead and make me disappear from this world, cremate me and dissolve my ashes in water.

I WANNA SHOP!!!

I wonder when my dad’s leaving. I haven’t talked to them since Sunday. I’m such a bitch, but right now, “care” doesn’t seem to be in my dictionary. What to do this weekend. One thing that I’m sure of is I won’t go home. Nah, I’m not rebelling. I’ve been doing that ever since, hehe joke. Well, Friday afternoon I can’t go out since I have to help in the creative team in AtSCA. “Change Gears.” I think this year’s theme is better than last year’s which was “Pagpalaot.” I guess Saturday too, but that would mean I have to go the area in the morning. I don’t wanna go there alone…scary. Haha! One jeepney drive plus a trike drive and a few minutes walk is not exactly an activity I want to do alone. Hopefully the whole K1B6 will go together. RJ has grown taller. La lang. I saw him last Thursday when I went to the area. Kinda shy pa daw, wooshoo! Miss niya lang ako, hehe! ^_^ Then I’ll be occupied the whole of Sunday though I’m trying to worm my way out for the afternoon. I need some time out. Oh yeah, for Saturday, I’m not sure if I still have a class. What I know is that my 30 units are done. If my mom paid for the next, I have no idea. I just hope it won’t be this Saturday.

I’m sleepy again. Argh! I’m becoming a slugabed!! Anyway, ciao! Chivediamo domani! (See you tomorrow!) or later, if I feel like blogging again ^_^