Damp weekend
"...Here we go...Here we go again..." - Here We Go Again by Kelly Rowland
Tears seem to come easily lately. I mean just this morning, when I woke up, I had tears in my eyes and there was this big damp spot on my pillow (and no, it's not my saliva). Aside from the tears, there was this painful ache on my chest. Figures. I just had a dream that the most important man in my life died. I mean, come on! Why would I have a dream like that? I couldn't help but think that maybe something happened to him or something. That fear that I kept ignoring came on full blast. But. It was just a dream. Just a dream and nothing else.
Anyway, I think that determined my mood for the rest of the day. Sure, I kept on a happy facade for my mom and tried my best to lighten her up too since she was down, tired and sleepy. I'm not fulfilling my promise to my dad to take care of her. It's funny how the people close to you are sometimes kinda deceived by the facade you create. Entering Greenbelt 3, a security guard checks the bags. I went ahead, leaving Mama and Manang behind. After the guard checked my bag, he looked at me, gave me a smile and said, "Oh ma'am, bakit ang lungkot n'yo? " Sufficed to say, I was really surprised. I just gave him a smile and walked on. Here was a person I barely knew and he saw behind my mask. After that, I tried my hardest to keep anything negative emanating from me.
Oh yeah, there was another thing that "brightened" *can't you hear the sarcasm?* my day. I officially do not have a laptop anymore. My life span just lessened by 10 years. The lcd of my laptop has gone to his second life, and that confounded lcd costs so much!
Argh! The Octoberfest song kept repeating in my head last night. I mean, of all the songs to have an lss, why that?? Well, considering that it was the song played over and over again in Eastwood. What I planned to be just a short visit to Katipunan became a movie/"shopping" night. Haha! Actually I was already planning on going out that night and Charmie and AC had the same plan too. Anyway, we watched a movie then went around the shops in Eastwood which wasn't much really. I saw this really cool cute bag that really called me! It was a bag from Bayo, white and orange, and you'll never guess what was written on it. Haha! Chill! I'll be buying that. There's no way I won't. :D I kinda regret not buying it last night but I was really controlling myself because it'll be like an overflowing dam that'll be opened. Uncontrollable, but I like to think I handled myself well last night. I didn't need anyone holding my wallet for me or anything or forcefully pulling me away from the bazaar. I did buy however one pair of white flip flops. Last night was fun, in a sort of twisted way :p It's our dirty little secret, ssshhh.
Feeling underappreciated again. Argh. Well, how can I not be? Everyone needs to be affirmed and...I mean, it's not easy. But...let it go. As long as...
Just one more week to go and we're all free!
Tears seem to come easily lately. I mean just this morning, when I woke up, I had tears in my eyes and there was this big damp spot on my pillow (and no, it's not my saliva). Aside from the tears, there was this painful ache on my chest. Figures. I just had a dream that the most important man in my life died. I mean, come on! Why would I have a dream like that? I couldn't help but think that maybe something happened to him or something. That fear that I kept ignoring came on full blast. But. It was just a dream. Just a dream and nothing else.
Anyway, I think that determined my mood for the rest of the day. Sure, I kept on a happy facade for my mom and tried my best to lighten her up too since she was down, tired and sleepy. I'm not fulfilling my promise to my dad to take care of her. It's funny how the people close to you are sometimes kinda deceived by the facade you create. Entering Greenbelt 3, a security guard checks the bags. I went ahead, leaving Mama and Manang behind. After the guard checked my bag, he looked at me, gave me a smile and said, "Oh ma'am, bakit ang lungkot n'yo? " Sufficed to say, I was really surprised. I just gave him a smile and walked on. Here was a person I barely knew and he saw behind my mask. After that, I tried my hardest to keep anything negative emanating from me.
Oh yeah, there was another thing that "brightened" *can't you hear the sarcasm?* my day. I officially do not have a laptop anymore. My life span just lessened by 10 years. The lcd of my laptop has gone to his second life, and that confounded lcd costs so much!
Argh! The Octoberfest song kept repeating in my head last night. I mean, of all the songs to have an lss, why that?? Well, considering that it was the song played over and over again in Eastwood. What I planned to be just a short visit to Katipunan became a movie/"shopping" night. Haha! Actually I was already planning on going out that night and Charmie and AC had the same plan too. Anyway, we watched a movie then went around the shops in Eastwood which wasn't much really. I saw this really cool cute bag that really called me! It was a bag from Bayo, white and orange, and you'll never guess what was written on it. Haha! Chill! I'll be buying that. There's no way I won't. :D I kinda regret not buying it last night but I was really controlling myself because it'll be like an overflowing dam that'll be opened. Uncontrollable, but I like to think I handled myself well last night. I didn't need anyone holding my wallet for me or anything or forcefully pulling me away from the bazaar. I did buy however one pair of white flip flops. Last night was fun, in a sort of twisted way :p It's our dirty little secret, ssshhh.
Feeling underappreciated again. Argh. Well, how can I not be? Everyone needs to be affirmed and...I mean, it's not easy. But...let it go. As long as...
Just one more week to go and we're all free!
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